Disillusionary

Disillusionary

Deep within my mind i sit alone
In a room with no windows
No doors...No way out
I was born in this place...How do get out?

Day after day..i pace about
I know every corner
And every turn
Though i can't see

So dark..so cold
I am alone....Possibly for the rest of my days
Free me....What exists on the outside?
Deep inside my mind...My cage

I want to break away
But i am so scared
Horrible visions of the outside
But i know i am locked in this room

I feel so angry...I can't break loose
I would kill myself if i had a way
No ropes..No gun
Forced to breathe....Want to die

Dementia is taking over
I am being tore apart
Stop the demons..The are devouring me
The pain!!!!!NOOOOOOO!!!!!!

Die!..Kill!!!!...So happy to see you!!
I love you...Now rape me
Twisting chaos....Bringing me down
Daddy....no!!!!

I feel so angry...I can't break loose
I would kill myself if i had a way
No ropes..No gun
Forced to breathe....Want to die


Ascending into hell
Descending into time
Trauma to the body...
Leave me alone...i am a mess

Lend me an ear...I need to see you
Get out of my mind!!!
Where did you go?
Blood....So sweet...So...s.w....e.e......t..

Why is it that i am so trapped..I need out
Please help me out of this hell
If i exist elsewhere kill the body
And i will kill me too...

Drink of me
As i eat of you
Need the nectar of life
Blood....So sweet...So...s.w....e.e......t..
So sweet indeed.....

Locked Away

Locked Away

I am here because of you
Feeling what i feel because of you
I need this pain ,so that i can be
Punished for the ways i am...Suffering so sweetly

Hey...I thought you loved it?
To see the blood you cause
The pain you cause again and again
I once again bleed

Keep your mentality
I don't need you
Just your pain
I hate to love this

Yesterday is gone...forever
You can't take this back
You won't take away my life
Because it is already gone

No escape from this hurt
I don't want it to end
Never will i be the person you knew
I killed him long ago

Taking its toll on my mind
Is their anything you need to say?
Callous to existence
Do you want to live or die?

Feelings set in stone
Emotions never changing
Cut me open and take what is yours
The fear you feel is your own

Have you ever been inside your own mind
It is a empty void
Mindless being,Hell bent on you own needs
Flog me with your hate...I laugh for you

We all die and no one will change that
Death has forged me
Pain has made me
I am the one trapped in this endless death

Never will i be free
Because i can't die
And i will not let this pain go
Looking for someone to free me....To no avail

Cry for me and you will be trapped
I am not worthy of these feelings you have
I thrive on negativity
And i will hold on

Rage is the way i am
Love is what will never be
Free me from this torture
And you will pay

Back and forth i travel this plain
Looking for freedom from this box
I can't see now
I fade away......

Beyond You

Beyond You

The sky is turning black
The sun is growing cold...
The moon like a great falling rock
Crushing us....Behold the machine

Great liar of the word
Speaking with the silver tongue
The deceiver of man...The Dark One
Burning the sacred lands

Everything will begin to die
Trees will become cinder..Smoldering
Fire and wind swirling destruction
Black and white world...Drained of the colors

At the peak of night
On the darkest point of your life
Everyone will suffer...And behold the angel
Of Golden hair and ashen skin

We are the cattle of the slaughter
Needful of life
Running away...Into a corner
It will be the end of a coward race

Chased away corralled and tossed into the depths
Blackening and blistered
The skin sliding off the bone
Smoldering soul with no escape

Hatred incarnate..Arch duke of the abyss
The exiled angel of your lord
Vengeful and almost as cruel as his maker
With one hand on your chest...crushing your soul

Your blood as wine
Your flesh as mutton
Your bones for bread...
And your soul......erased from existence

Demonic seed spread throughout
Raped and broken
Humbled before the world
Your infants.....As bloody sacrifices

Eternal torment as you are torn limb from limb
Not allowed to die
Drawn and quartered...Left to rot to death
Gangrenous freak made as an example

What is the nature of the game??..
To kill the sorrow of man
Sinners and murderers alike
Kill everyone and end the sin

Look in the mirror and see the evil
Peering back at you
The end is neigh
And the end is forever

Claws in your stomach....Are yours
The teeth in your neck are the teeth of your god
The rotting smell that lingers...Are the sins of man
And the sword you are impaled with....Is the future of man....

Poison Soul

Poison Soul

Do not think of me
You Are not worthy
Do you think you are someone??.
Just a nobody...Get going little man

Time has come that you should know the truth
Poison your soul and be the absolution of nothingness
Be afraid and and run
Be afraid and you can not hide

So far from anything you have ever known
The warpaint flows red....Blood flows freely
Propose your deal and sell your soul
Burning in hell for the way you are....Goodnight sweet prince
Its over now

Pain and agony are your only companions
Guiding you to the end
Fucked over again.....Never knowing it..
Pay the price and rot away

LIAR....you are dying
Crying like a baby
Sin and be free
Your life is now mine...And i chose your path

Redeemer of light
Conqueror of night
Behold the end
So it shall set you free

So you want me to cry?
To feel things you are feeling?
Need to be free?..Fuck you.....I am beyond you
And you are NOTHING

Every corner you turn....here i am
Am i free...Or your shadow
I am the poison in which you drink
Hemlock...I am the end

The Shape Of Hate

The Shape of Hate

Why is it this way
Scarred and scared
Alone in the dark
Crying.....Tears of blood

Hardly breathing...Exhausted by the loss of blood
Twitching And Fading away
Mauled like the prey you were
Broken and gasping your last breath

Why did i do this?
Why will it get worse?
Why are you dying?
Because i hate!

HATE......driving me
HATE.....unrelenting
HATE.....never fading
HATE......making me
HATE......lets me live
HATE......FOREVER

Will i ever doubt the pain....No
Will i let you go in peace....Never
Time it comes back to you
Blood......Flowing like the hate from my pores

Torn apart..I Shred the remains
Burnt at the stake...Blistering
Hate you ....With all of who i am
I desecrate the remains

I will destroy your mind along with your heart
Make you suffer through my pleasure
Make my pleasure your agony
My mind inside yours...Twisting

Why did i do this?
Why will it get worse?
Why are you dying?
Because i hate!

HATE......driving me
HATE.....unrelenting
HATE.....never fading
HATE......making me
HATE......lets me live
HATE......FOREVER


Now you know what its like to Hate
And know my loathing of life
Even better than most
I am the one you see behind your own eyes

Even in the brightest light
The darkness exists
For i am the one
To once again crucify you

Never again will you see the day..
And the sky cries for you
The cursed killer you behold..Is the end
And know you are hated

HATE......driving me
HATE.....unrelenting
HATE.....never fading
HATE......making me
HATE......lets me live
HATE......FOREVER

HATE......driving me
HATE.....unrelenting
HATE.....never fading
HATE......making me
HATE......lets me live
HATE......FOREVER

..........HATE.......HATE.......HATE........